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After I came out of prison I had 
a nice job and met a nice woman.

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We got married, had a nice flat, 
things were going nice.

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We were both happy.

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Three years ago my wife passed away suddenly.

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I left the hospital that morning and I never went 
back to the flat and never went back to work.

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I found myself on the street, homeless.

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Money doesn’t seem important as much as what 
it used to seem when I had my flat and my wife.

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We seemed to look at money more seriously 
than what I look at it now.

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The only time I worry about money is 
when I get down to my last 3 or 4 pound.

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Because anything you try to buy to eat 
is going to cost at least 3 or 4 pound.

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So if I was to give you 20 pounds...

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What would I do with it?

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If I was to get up now and walk off with it? 
I’d probably get something to eat.

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I'd hold on to as much of it as I could.

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Until I needed more, which is probably tonight,

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where I'd go to this all night cafe,

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I would buy something to eat and a cup of tea.

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I'd probably spend about 6 pound,

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so it would enable me to sit in there 
for 3 or 4 hours.

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Out of the cold.

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Half the night would be gone 
so that's half of my worries tonight gone.

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There is another way I could do it.

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I could go and get a room for the night in a B&B.

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If the nights are too cold and I'd 
got that money, I'd sometimes do that.

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Getting 20 pound aint often, and 
it's gone in one when you do that.

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I have difficulty going in to 90% 
of the places I try to go in.

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Even if it's  just for a takeaway sandwich.

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I feel so embarrassed sometimes that I don’t 
even give them a chance to say anything.

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I make an excuse and go wait outside

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because I can see just by looking at them 
that they don’t want me in there.

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So rather than the embarrassment, 
I walk out and wait outside the door.

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50 pound in life is not a lot of money 
in this day and age.

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But it is to me.

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I look at them every day walking past where I sit.

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I look at them and think of the difference, 
you've probably just gone and spent £50 on a lunch.

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That 50 pound would have lasted me a week.

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Do I think they take it for granted?

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Those sort of people, 
they most certainly do, yeah.