WEBVTT 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:00.499 align:middle line:90% 00:00:00.499 --> 00:00:02.420 align:middle line:84% - I've lost my voice so ever slightly. 00:00:02.420 --> 00:00:02.920 align:middle line:90% - OK. 00:00:02.920 --> 00:00:04.626 align:middle line:90% - But I think I sound better. 00:00:04.626 --> 00:00:06.000 align:middle line:84% - Yeah, see what you think about. 00:00:06.000 --> 00:00:07.320 align:middle line:84% - How much-- you know what I'm like. 00:00:07.320 --> 00:00:07.890 align:middle line:90% I move around. 00:00:07.890 --> 00:00:08.735 align:middle line:90% How much leeway do I have? 00:00:08.735 --> 00:00:09.030 align:middle line:90% - That's great. 00:00:09.030 --> 00:00:09.120 align:middle line:90% Yeah. 00:00:09.120 --> 00:00:10.370 align:middle line:90% - Can you see my hands though? 00:00:10.370 --> 00:00:11.310 align:middle line:90% I'm feeling like I'm-- 00:00:11.310 --> 00:00:11.809 align:middle line:90% - Yes. 00:00:11.809 --> 00:00:13.390 align:middle line:90% Are you comfortable? 00:00:13.390 --> 00:00:16.340 align:middle line:90% - Yeah, I'm all right. 00:00:16.340 --> 00:00:17.310 align:middle line:90% I can pause, right? 00:00:17.310 --> 00:00:18.934 align:middle line:84% If I'm just-- if I have a little think? 00:00:18.934 --> 00:00:21.190 align:middle line:84% I'd rather have a really long pause and a good answer 00:00:21.190 --> 00:00:21.690 align:middle line:90% than, like-- 00:00:21.690 --> 00:00:22.310 align:middle line:90% - Exactly. 00:00:22.310 --> 00:00:22.934 align:middle line:90% - There you go. 00:00:22.934 --> 00:00:24.140 align:middle line:90% I'm too professional. 00:00:24.140 --> 00:00:26.994 align:middle line:84% What-- I can't remember what the question was. 00:00:26.994 --> 00:00:27.976 align:middle line:90% - I asked you about-- 00:00:27.976 --> 00:00:31.910 align:middle line:90% 00:00:31.910 --> 00:00:35.060 align:middle line:90% Hello or hi? 00:00:35.060 --> 00:00:36.110 align:middle line:90% My name is Emily. 00:00:36.110 --> 00:00:39.080 align:middle line:90% 00:00:39.080 --> 00:00:41.270 align:middle line:84% Mostly I grew up in the countryside, 00:00:41.270 --> 00:00:44.840 align:middle line:84% so kind of running around people's farms. 00:00:44.840 --> 00:00:48.140 align:middle line:84% My mum used to read poems to me all of the time. 00:00:48.140 --> 00:00:50.716 align:middle line:84% Around the house, she'd be doing the washing up and reciting. 00:00:50.716 --> 00:00:52.340 align:middle line:84% It's always been a big part of my life. 00:00:52.340 --> 00:00:54.050 align:middle line:84% My mum used to take me to church. 00:00:54.050 --> 00:00:57.390 align:middle line:84% They'd ask me to write, kind of, poems about Easter or Mothering 00:00:57.390 --> 00:00:57.890 align:middle line:90% Sunday. 00:00:57.890 --> 00:00:59.946 align:middle line:90% And I'd read them on stage. 00:00:59.946 --> 00:01:01.070 align:middle line:90% I was a very anxious child. 00:01:01.070 --> 00:01:03.650 align:middle line:84% I was always really frightened of quite a lot of things. 00:01:03.650 --> 00:01:05.960 align:middle line:84% So it was a nice controlled way of me standing there. 00:01:05.960 --> 00:01:10.310 align:middle line:84% I got to read things that made people, you know, happy. 00:01:10.310 --> 00:01:14.290 align:middle line:90% 00:01:14.290 --> 00:01:19.730 align:middle line:84% When I was about 13, I noticed that I was feeling really sad. 00:01:19.730 --> 00:01:22.600 align:middle line:84% It was lasting for a long time and there wasn't really 00:01:22.600 --> 00:01:23.420 align:middle line:90% any reason. 00:01:23.420 --> 00:01:26.410 align:middle line:84% I wasn't eating and I would sleep a lot. 00:01:26.410 --> 00:01:29.260 align:middle line:84% I felt like this physical weight on top of-- like pushing down 00:01:29.260 --> 00:01:29.890 align:middle line:90% my shoulders. 00:01:29.890 --> 00:01:31.810 align:middle line:84% Every day, it felt like I had run a marathon. 00:01:31.810 --> 00:01:35.020 align:middle line:84% The things that usually made me feel really good 00:01:35.020 --> 00:01:40.230 align:middle line:84% or usually made me laugh or that tasted good, all of that went. 00:01:40.230 --> 00:01:43.360 align:middle line:90% And I stopped seeing my friends. 00:01:43.360 --> 00:01:46.020 align:middle line:90% 00:01:46.020 --> 00:01:47.260 align:middle line:90% OK. 00:01:47.260 --> 00:01:54.700 align:middle line:84% So my mum took me to the doctor's, and my mum took me 00:01:54.700 --> 00:01:58.230 align:middle line:90% to the doctor's and we-- 00:01:58.230 --> 00:01:58.990 align:middle line:90% Do you know what? 00:01:58.990 --> 00:02:01.150 align:middle line:84% My mum didn't take me to the doctor's because I took myself. 00:02:01.150 --> 00:02:02.840 align:middle line:84% Because people around me would say, 00:02:02.840 --> 00:02:04.010 align:middle line:90% "Well you're a teenager now! 00:02:04.010 --> 00:02:05.770 align:middle line:84% That's why you're feeling really emotional." 00:02:05.770 --> 00:02:07.690 align:middle line:84% And I had a really lovely doctor who said, "No, there 00:02:07.690 --> 00:02:08.560 align:middle line:90% is something wrong." 00:02:08.560 --> 00:02:11.380 align:middle line:84% They put me through to some therapy 00:02:11.380 --> 00:02:14.440 align:middle line:84% and they also decided to maybe try me on some medication. 00:02:14.440 --> 00:02:16.960 align:middle line:84% I got better and I felt better, but then it 00:02:16.960 --> 00:02:19.520 align:middle line:84% started getting maybe a little bit too much. 00:02:19.520 --> 00:02:21.730 align:middle line:84% I had too much energy that I couldn't sleep at all. 00:02:21.730 --> 00:02:23.650 align:middle line:90% I'd spent so much money. 00:02:23.650 --> 00:02:24.760 align:middle line:90% Things I didn't need. 00:02:24.760 --> 00:02:25.950 align:middle line:90% Things I didn't even like. 00:02:25.950 --> 00:02:27.670 align:middle line:84% My brain was going 100 miles an hour. 00:02:27.670 --> 00:02:30.170 align:middle line:84% I started thinking that people were following me. 00:02:30.170 --> 00:02:32.350 align:middle line:84% That there were cameras in my house. 00:02:32.350 --> 00:02:34.000 align:middle line:84% So my mum took me back to the doctor's. 00:02:34.000 --> 00:02:36.130 align:middle line:84% And it was at that point that they realised that, obviously, 00:02:36.130 --> 00:02:37.659 align:middle line:84% I have times where I'm really low. 00:02:37.659 --> 00:02:39.700 align:middle line:84% But if you also have the high points as well then 00:02:39.700 --> 00:02:41.910 align:middle line:84% you have something called bipolar disorder. 00:02:41.910 --> 00:02:46.560 align:middle line:90% 00:02:46.560 --> 00:02:49.770 align:middle line:84% Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder. 00:02:49.770 --> 00:02:51.510 align:middle line:84% And people who have bipolar disorder 00:02:51.510 --> 00:02:55.170 align:middle line:84% might just wake up one day and feel really happy, 00:02:55.170 --> 00:02:56.490 align:middle line:90% and nothing's changed. 00:02:56.490 --> 00:02:58.680 align:middle line:84% It's just a chemical in their brain 00:02:58.680 --> 00:03:00.670 align:middle line:84% has been firing off a little bit too much. 00:03:00.670 --> 00:03:04.860 align:middle line:84% Or some days I would wake up and feel really sad 00:03:04.860 --> 00:03:06.300 align:middle line:90% for no reason whatsoever. 00:03:06.300 --> 00:03:07.980 align:middle line:84% Because those chemicals in my brain 00:03:07.980 --> 00:03:10.200 align:middle line:90% have just like drained out. 00:03:10.200 --> 00:03:12.900 align:middle line:84% A useful way to think about your moods 00:03:12.900 --> 00:03:14.670 align:middle line:84% when you have bipolar disorder is 00:03:14.670 --> 00:03:18.040 align:middle line:84% to think about them on a scale from 1 to 10. 00:03:18.040 --> 00:03:26.340 align:middle line:84% So number one, I'd probably wake up sometime in the afternoon. 00:03:26.340 --> 00:03:28.790 align:middle line:84% So we've already lost most of the day. 00:03:28.790 --> 00:03:32.460 align:middle line:84% And at the absolute worst I would lie in my bed awake 00:03:32.460 --> 00:03:35.700 align:middle line:84% staring at the wall and I would be unable to turn over 00:03:35.700 --> 00:03:37.770 align:middle line:90% to the other side. 00:03:37.770 --> 00:03:40.050 align:middle line:84% And the thought of turning over to the other side 00:03:40.050 --> 00:03:44.250 align:middle line:84% would make me cry so much, and with so much effort 00:03:44.250 --> 00:03:45.790 align:middle line:90% I would fall back asleep. 00:03:45.790 --> 00:03:50.430 align:middle line:84% And then I'd sleep for another 12 to 15 hours. 00:03:50.430 --> 00:03:54.630 align:middle line:84% When you have a week of that, you're not showering, 00:03:54.630 --> 00:03:57.029 align:middle line:90% you're not eating, and even -- 00:03:57.029 --> 00:03:58.320 align:middle line:90% you're not going to the toilet. 00:03:58.320 --> 00:04:00.510 align:middle line:84% So things like getting kidney infections. 00:04:00.510 --> 00:04:02.684 align:middle line:84% And at times I was unable to talk. 00:04:02.684 --> 00:04:04.350 align:middle line:84% People would come in-- my mum, and she'd 00:04:04.350 --> 00:04:06.475 align:middle line:84% say, "You need to-- we need to get you out of bed." 00:04:06.475 --> 00:04:08.100 align:middle line:84% And I would be unable to respond. 00:04:08.100 --> 00:04:11.541 align:middle line:90% 00:04:11.541 --> 00:04:13.964 align:middle line:84% And then, on the other side of the scale, 00:04:13.964 --> 00:04:16.380 align:middle line:84% number ten, when you're feeling really manic and really up 00:04:16.380 --> 00:04:19.200 align:middle line:84% is kind of losing touch with the real world. 00:04:19.200 --> 00:04:22.230 align:middle line:84% For me, it lasts a very short amount of time. 00:04:22.230 --> 00:04:26.300 align:middle line:84% It's like eating your favourite food consistently. 00:04:26.300 --> 00:04:28.800 align:middle line:84% Stuff that's so sugary and so sweet that it almost makes you 00:04:28.800 --> 00:04:29.758 align:middle line:90% feel a little bit sick. 00:04:29.758 --> 00:04:33.120 align:middle line:84% It's like your favourite song is playing as loudly as it 00:04:33.120 --> 00:04:34.670 align:middle line:84% possibly can everywhere you walk. 00:04:34.670 --> 00:04:36.330 align:middle line:84% And down the street, people are looking at you 00:04:36.330 --> 00:04:37.496 align:middle line:90% and they're high-fiving you. 00:04:37.496 --> 00:04:39.990 align:middle line:84% You're the next biggest superstar. 00:04:39.990 --> 00:04:42.512 align:middle line:84% I want to learn 15 different languages. 00:04:42.512 --> 00:04:44.220 align:middle line:84% I want to write a novel and a screenplay. 00:04:44.220 --> 00:04:45.659 align:middle line:90% Oh, no wait, but this and that-- 00:04:45.659 --> 00:04:46.450 align:middle line:90% I can do all of it. 00:04:46.450 --> 00:04:47.640 align:middle line:90% And I'll do of it at the same. 00:04:47.640 --> 00:04:48.860 align:middle line:84% And I'll get it all done by tomorrow. 00:04:48.860 --> 00:04:50.645 align:middle line:84% You said you'd meet somebody, but something better 00:04:50.645 --> 00:04:51.060 align:middle line:90% has come up. 00:04:51.060 --> 00:04:52.440 align:middle line:84% I know I'll just ditch that person. 00:04:52.440 --> 00:04:53.220 align:middle line:90% And why do you care? 00:04:53.220 --> 00:04:54.080 align:middle line:90% You're thinking about you. 00:04:54.080 --> 00:04:55.496 align:middle line:84% You don't think about anyone else. 00:04:55.496 --> 00:04:59.250 align:middle line:84% I would walk out in front of traffic almost as if I can-- 00:04:59.250 --> 00:05:00.090 align:middle line:90% it will stop for me! 00:05:00.090 --> 00:05:00.755 align:middle line:90% I'm that important! 00:05:00.755 --> 00:05:02.504 align:middle line:84% Or someone says, "Have a ride in my car!", 00:05:02.504 --> 00:05:05.310 align:middle line:84% and you don't know who they are and you just jump in. 00:05:05.310 --> 00:05:07.890 align:middle line:84% You don't think about the consequences. 00:05:07.890 --> 00:05:10.030 align:middle line:84% And there are lots of consequences that can happen. 00:05:10.030 --> 00:05:13.350 align:middle line:90% And that's why it's dangerous. 00:05:13.350 --> 00:05:16.230 align:middle line:90% [MUSIC PLAYING] 00:05:16.230 --> 00:05:19.590 align:middle line:90% 00:05:19.590 --> 00:05:21.261 align:middle line:84% If you have a mental health disorder. 00:05:21.261 --> 00:05:21.760 align:middle line:90% That's it. 00:05:21.760 --> 00:05:23.718 align:middle line:84% Like, I just have this for the rest of my life. 00:05:23.718 --> 00:05:26.650 align:middle line:84% My brain is wired in a different way. 00:05:26.650 --> 00:05:28.390 align:middle line:84% And I knew from when I got the diagnosis 00:05:28.390 --> 00:05:31.280 align:middle line:84% that I can't be the only one who feels frightened about this. 00:05:31.280 --> 00:05:32.970 align:middle line:84% In life, at least one in four people 00:05:32.970 --> 00:05:35.339 align:middle line:84% will have moments where they have a really tough time 00:05:35.339 --> 00:05:36.380 align:middle line:90% with their mental health. 00:05:36.380 --> 00:05:38.930 align:middle line:90% 00:05:38.930 --> 00:05:41.930 align:middle line:84% Managing the condition is really difficult 00:05:41.930 --> 00:05:44.690 align:middle line:84% and I'm still trying to do it now. 00:05:44.690 --> 00:05:46.250 align:middle line:84% All I can really do to prepare myself 00:05:46.250 --> 00:05:49.077 align:middle line:84% is have systems in place, and then 00:05:49.077 --> 00:05:50.660 align:middle line:84% making sure that the people around me, 00:05:50.660 --> 00:05:53.120 align:middle line:84% whether that's my family or my friends 00:05:53.120 --> 00:05:54.830 align:middle line:90% know what to look out for. 00:05:54.830 --> 00:05:57.560 align:middle line:84% Because sometimes I worry that my behaviour looks like 00:05:57.560 --> 00:05:58.580 align:middle line:90% I'm ignoring people. 00:05:58.580 --> 00:06:01.160 align:middle line:84% If you don't hear from someone for a few days, 00:06:01.160 --> 00:06:04.100 align:middle line:84% if you notice somebody has stopped sitting with you 00:06:04.100 --> 00:06:07.400 align:middle line:84% at lunch or somebody has stopped replying to your messages, 00:06:07.400 --> 00:06:09.200 align:middle line:90% check whether that person's OK. 00:06:09.200 --> 00:06:11.391 align:middle line:84% I think the most important thing that my friends do 00:06:11.391 --> 00:06:12.890 align:middle line:84% and that I try and do for my friends 00:06:12.890 --> 00:06:14.660 align:middle line:90% is we don't try and fix things. 00:06:14.660 --> 00:06:16.460 align:middle line:84% It's a very human reaction that if someone 00:06:16.460 --> 00:06:18.807 align:middle line:84% says, "I feel awful," you go, "OK, what can I do? 00:06:18.807 --> 00:06:19.390 align:middle line:90% What can I do? 00:06:19.390 --> 00:06:19.910 align:middle line:90% What can I do?" 00:06:19.910 --> 00:06:21.740 align:middle line:84% When you are dealing with mental health issues and especially 00:06:21.740 --> 00:06:23.180 align:middle line:84% mental health disorders, it's not 00:06:23.180 --> 00:06:26.090 align:middle line:84% as simple as just fixing something on the day. 00:06:26.090 --> 00:06:27.910 align:middle line:84% And I think a really, really useful phrase 00:06:27.910 --> 00:06:30.530 align:middle line:84% that I would give to absolutely everybody 00:06:30.530 --> 00:06:34.190 align:middle line:84% is to just say if someone finally opens up to you-- 00:06:34.190 --> 00:06:39.380 align:middle line:84% is to just say to that person, "Is there anything I can do?" 00:06:39.380 --> 00:06:41.950 align:middle line:84% "And if there isn't, let me know as soon as there 00:06:41.950 --> 00:06:43.054 align:middle line:90% is something I can do." 00:06:43.054 --> 00:06:44.470 align:middle line:84% And if they're like me and they're 00:06:44.470 --> 00:06:46.303 align:middle line:84% the kind of person who doesn't ask for help, 00:06:46.303 --> 00:06:48.799 align:middle line:84% maybe ask that question more than once. 00:06:48.799 --> 00:06:51.090 align:middle line:84% The best thing my friends do is they send me a message, 00:06:51.090 --> 00:06:55.900 align:middle line:84% they say, "You don't need to respond, I'm thinking of you. 00:06:55.900 --> 00:06:58.640 align:middle line:84% Reply with a full stop if you get this." 00:06:58.640 --> 00:07:01.330 align:middle line:84% And it stops me from feeling isolated and cut off. 00:07:01.330 --> 00:07:03.865 align:middle line:84% And ultimately, it helps me come out of that episode. 00:07:03.865 --> 00:07:07.300 align:middle line:90% 00:07:07.300 --> 00:07:09.790 align:middle line:84% I still find it very difficult to talk 00:07:09.790 --> 00:07:12.250 align:middle line:84% to my mum and dad and my family about my mental health 00:07:12.250 --> 00:07:13.070 align:middle line:90% problems. 00:07:13.070 --> 00:07:15.340 align:middle line:84% People who are older than me were brought up to not 00:07:15.340 --> 00:07:17.380 align:middle line:84% talk about those sorts of things. 00:07:17.380 --> 00:07:19.140 align:middle line:90% But I'm still going. 00:07:19.140 --> 00:07:21.100 align:middle line:84% So it's been seven or eight years, 00:07:21.100 --> 00:07:23.660 align:middle line:84% and if I have a change of medication 00:07:23.660 --> 00:07:26.170 align:middle line:84% or I had a particularly good talk with a therapist, 00:07:26.170 --> 00:07:28.580 align:middle line:84% when I go back home, I will tell my family that. 00:07:28.580 --> 00:07:32.110 align:middle line:84% And even if they don't respond, my side of the conversation 00:07:32.110 --> 00:07:33.360 align:middle line:90% is always open. 00:07:33.360 --> 00:07:37.390 align:middle line:84% And I'm waiting for the time when they want to open theirs. 00:07:37.390 --> 00:07:41.925 align:middle line:84% - What have you accomplished that has made you proud? 00:07:41.925 --> 00:07:45.700 align:middle line:90% 00:07:45.700 --> 00:07:46.510 align:middle line:90% - OK. 00:07:46.510 --> 00:07:49.420 align:middle line:84% So when I first got diagnosed, I honestly 00:07:49.420 --> 00:07:51.914 align:middle line:84% saw it as a bit of a death sentence. 00:07:51.914 --> 00:07:54.580 align:middle line:84% I was like, OK, so I've just got this thing now that's going to, 00:07:54.580 --> 00:07:57.097 align:middle line:84% like, consistently bother me for the rest of my life 00:07:57.097 --> 00:07:58.180 align:middle line:90% and make me really unwell. 00:07:58.180 --> 00:07:59.230 align:middle line:84% Like, I'm not going to underplay. 00:07:59.230 --> 00:08:00.730 align:middle line:84% Like, it will make me really unwell. 00:08:00.730 --> 00:08:05.760 align:middle line:84% And I just thought, well, then I can't do anything. 00:08:05.760 --> 00:08:09.110 align:middle line:84% And then-- it wasn't really a person, 00:08:09.110 --> 00:08:11.510 align:middle line:84% just one day I was just like, actually, do you know what? 00:08:11.510 --> 00:08:13.220 align:middle line:90% I'm going to do everything. 00:08:13.220 --> 00:08:15.869 align:middle line:84% I went to university and I was hospitalised twice 00:08:15.869 --> 00:08:16.910 align:middle line:90% when I was in university. 00:08:16.910 --> 00:08:17.827 align:middle line:90% And I carried on. 00:08:17.827 --> 00:08:19.160 align:middle line:90% I thought to myself, no, no, no. 00:08:19.160 --> 00:08:22.070 align:middle line:84% People don't think you can do it, so do it! 00:08:22.070 --> 00:08:25.569 align:middle line:84% Becoming a teacher, I never thought I'd be able to do that. 00:08:25.569 --> 00:08:27.110 align:middle line:84% And when I wanted to become a teacher 00:08:27.110 --> 00:08:29.019 align:middle line:84% I messaged lots and lots of people. 00:08:29.019 --> 00:08:30.560 align:middle line:84% And I said, "Do you know any teachers 00:08:30.560 --> 00:08:31.910 align:middle line:90% with bipolar disorder?" 00:08:31.910 --> 00:08:33.409 align:middle line:84% And they said, "No, but that doesn't 00:08:33.409 --> 00:08:34.610 align:middle line:84% mean there aren't any, just maybe they're 00:08:34.610 --> 00:08:35.830 align:middle line:90% not telling anybody!" 00:08:35.830 --> 00:08:37.580 align:middle line:84% And I was like, well, there you go. 00:08:37.580 --> 00:08:38.820 align:middle line:84% I'm going to become a teacher and I'm 00:08:38.820 --> 00:08:40.903 align:middle line:84% going to tell everybody I've got bipolar disorder. 00:08:40.903 --> 00:08:42.110 align:middle line:90% Because this is doable. 00:08:42.110 --> 00:08:46.164 align:middle line:84% Actually, the world is bigger than just me having 00:08:46.164 --> 00:08:47.330 align:middle line:90% to deal with this on my own. 00:08:47.330 --> 00:08:49.329 align:middle line:84% There are people out there who will support you. 00:08:49.329 --> 00:08:52.270 align:middle line:84% I write poetry and people let me perform it, 00:08:52.270 --> 00:08:53.690 align:middle line:90% which is really lovely. 00:08:53.690 --> 00:08:55.550 align:middle line:84% When I went into hospital everyone was like, 00:08:55.550 --> 00:08:57.940 align:middle line:84% "You're going to have so much to write about!" 00:08:57.940 --> 00:08:59.280 align:middle line:90% And I thought, how dare you? 00:08:59.280 --> 00:09:01.107 align:middle line:84% Like, I'm honestly really unwell. 00:09:01.107 --> 00:09:02.940 align:middle line:84% I can't even think about that at the moment. 00:09:02.940 --> 00:09:04.398 align:middle line:84% But secretly, I was like, I'm going 00:09:04.398 --> 00:09:05.820 align:middle line:90% to have so much to write about! 00:09:05.820 --> 00:09:08.330 align:middle line:84% I think it's really important to talk about things. 00:09:08.330 --> 00:09:10.370 align:middle line:90% I just-- I have no shame. 00:09:10.370 --> 00:09:12.590 align:middle line:84% Why should I be ashamed of having a mental health 00:09:12.590 --> 00:09:13.430 align:middle line:90% disorder? 00:09:13.430 --> 00:09:16.760 align:middle line:84% When we don't openly talk about things in a positive light, 00:09:16.760 --> 00:09:19.700 align:middle line:84% people feel ashamed of how they're feeling. 00:09:19.700 --> 00:09:25.790 align:middle line:84% And they feel really unhappy about feeling unhappy. 00:09:25.790 --> 00:09:29.900 align:middle line:90% And it just makes it worse. 00:09:29.900 --> 00:09:33.972 align:middle line:84% If we just accept that there are people in life who 00:09:33.972 --> 00:09:35.930 align:middle line:84% have mental health disabilities, because that's 00:09:35.930 --> 00:09:38.450 align:middle line:84% what it is, you're born-- you are differently abled-- then 00:09:38.450 --> 00:09:40.730 align:middle line:84% we will allow those people to function 00:09:40.730 --> 00:09:42.330 align:middle line:90% within society a lot better. 00:09:42.330 --> 00:09:45.219 align:middle line:84% And I think it would just be better for everyone. 00:09:45.219 --> 00:09:47.510 align:middle line:84% After I do a reading, sometimes people come speak to me 00:09:47.510 --> 00:09:49.520 align:middle line:84% and they say thank you, or they say, "Do you know what? 00:09:49.520 --> 00:09:50.942 align:middle line:84% I'm experiencing the same thing." 00:09:50.942 --> 00:09:52.150 align:middle line:90% And that might be the first-- 00:09:52.150 --> 00:09:54.690 align:middle line:84% I might be the first person they've said that to. 00:09:54.690 --> 00:09:55.370 align:middle line:90% That's amazing. 00:09:55.370 --> 00:09:57.411 align:middle line:84% And then it makes me feel like the situation I've 00:09:57.411 --> 00:10:00.569 align:middle line:84% been going through is positive in some way. 00:10:00.569 --> 00:10:03.110 align:middle line:84% Because I could just sit there and be like, do you know what? 00:10:03.110 --> 00:10:06.080 align:middle line:84% I was handed a rubbish deck of cards or whatever it's called. 00:10:06.080 --> 00:10:09.134 align:middle line:84% Like, I was handed this rubbish thing, 00:10:09.134 --> 00:10:11.050 align:middle line:84% and I should just sit there and sulk about it. 00:10:11.050 --> 00:10:12.050 align:middle line:90% And I'm like, no! 00:10:12.050 --> 00:10:16.250 align:middle line:84% Because this is my one life and I've got it, 00:10:16.250 --> 00:10:18.260 align:middle line:84% and I'm going to at least do something 00:10:18.260 --> 00:10:20.350 align:middle line:84% positive with some of the negative stuff 00:10:20.350 --> 00:10:22.710 align:middle line:90% that I've experienced. 00:10:22.710 --> 00:10:32.024 align:middle line:90%