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-My name is Katie.

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I work as a paediatric
nurse with young children--

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newborn babies up
to about 16, 17.

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You're there to do
everything for them.

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You check their pulse.

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You check their temperatures.

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Under your arms.

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You give medication.

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And then look after them.

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Make them feel better.

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-36.6

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-Perfect.

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Sometimes you do see
things that are hard.

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You see children
that are involved

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in road-traffic accidents
and things like that.

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They can be so upset
and in a lot of pain,

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which can be really difficult.

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We do 12 and a half hour shifts.

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So spending time with the people
that you love is quite hard.

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But I love being with families.

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I love being with the children.

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I love seeing them get better
and knowing that you've

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had an impact in that.

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I wouldn't do anything else.

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I grew up in
Glasgow in Scotland,

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in a little town
called Bishopbriggs.

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We grew up as practising
Catholic family.

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And I can remember going
to church with my parents

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as a young child and kneeling on
the pews and playing with a car

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or pretending my fingers
were Irish dancers.

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The whole church was like
a big extended family.

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They've seen you grow up.

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They've seen you celebrate
your First Communion

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They've seen you have
your Confirmation.

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And then they see
you as a young adult.

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It's hard to define your faith.

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My faith is quite a
big part of my life.

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Really, it's just a part of me.

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Deep down it's about
being a good person,

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living your life in a positive
way and being fair to people

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and loving people
and treating people

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as you want to be
treated, fighting

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for people who need to be fought
for and looking after sick

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and feeding the homeless and
living the way that Jesus

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would want you to live.

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Praying is something
that I do often.

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I pause and try and just have
a quick conversation with God

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and just let him know what's
going on and what's worrying me

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or what I'm thankful
for for the day.

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Vivette and I's first date
was at a chocolate festival.

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And we then went on
to go and have dinner.

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And we just didn't
really want to leave

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each other at the
end on the first day

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that we met each other.

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We've been together for
almost two years now.

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We spend a lot of time
listening to music.

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We discuss a lot of things.

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We wall-climb and...

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This is so embarrassing.

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I love the way that
she listens to me.

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You know, I can talk a
lot of nonsense sometimes.

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But she'll always listen to me.

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And she makes me feel happy.

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And I can just be me and be
silly, be my good and my bad

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and know that she'll love me.

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And I love her back for
everything that she is.

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[MUSIC PLAYING]

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I don't know how to start this.

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When I first started to
think that I was gay,

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that I was attracted
to women, my faith

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had a massive impact on how I
felt about myself at the time.

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Deep down inside
there is something

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that was trying to scream
at me, saying it was wrong.

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No, it's fine.

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You'll just meet a man
and you'll get married

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and you'll just ignore it.

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And then it pulls
you down and I felt

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like I was lying to myself.

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And I was lying to my family.

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And I was lying to God by
not being who I felt I was.

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It took a long time for me to
tell my family that I was gay.

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I think it took me about
two or three years.

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But we were going through
a lot as a family.

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Sorry.

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-Can I get you a tissue?

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-No, no.

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I'm fine.

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I knew this would
happen, sorry...

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-That's OK.

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-So I eventually told them.

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And I told them in a letter.

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I wrote them a letter,
knowing that I was going out.

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And I left it for them
on the coffee table.

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And I left not knowing what
their reaction would be.

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And I-- sorry.

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I'm sniffing.

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And I remember
sitting, preparing

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music for a liturgy service.

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And I got a text message from
my mum saying, we love you.

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And it doesn't matter.

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And I came home.

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And I came home to open
arms and lots of tears

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and lots of different emotions.

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But they had to take their
time to embrace it and think

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about it and accept it.

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You know, when there was
campaigns for equal marriage,

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there was quite a negative
spin from the Catholic Church.

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And for my parents, that
was hard because they see

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my brother and they would see I,
and for them, it would be well,

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why can one of my children
love and marry and one can't?

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There are three interpretations
of homosexuality and faith.

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You have the
conservative approach,

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quite strict on what
the Bible teaches

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about marriage and relationships
being between men and women.

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But the Bible has
so many teachings

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written thousands of years
ago as a way of storytelling

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and trying to teach
people how to live.

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And we've changed as a
society so much since then.

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And then you have an
area in the middle, where

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the Catechism stands, which is
the book of rules and teachings

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set out by the Catholic Church.

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It accepts that
homosexuality exists.

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But it asks you to pray and
not to act on these feelings.

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Then you have the liberal
side where they accept

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that homosexuality is normal.

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And we shouldn't be denying
people of loving and sharing

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their life with somebody.

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I've found a church on the
other state of Glasgow.

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And the priest, he welcomed
everybody and said,

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we're all equal.

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We're all brothers
and sisters and made

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me feel that everything
was going to be OK.

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Then when I moved to London,
I attended the Soho Masses.

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To stand in a church
surrounded by other LGBT people

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and to hear the words welcoming
specifically LGBT people,

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was, I guess, life changing.

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Where I work now, I feel
I'm accepted for who I am.

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But that might not
always be the case

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for people in different
parts of the UK

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or different parts of the world.

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I remember having
a conversation once

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with one of the
nurses who I'd worked

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with for such a long time.

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And she asked me
about having children.

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And I says, it would
be quite difficult.

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And she started to ask why.

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And I says, oh, well
you know, I'm gay.

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And she's like, oh.

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And then she says, oh you
know, you should pray.

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You should pray and it
will, I think, go away,

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I guess is what she was meaning.

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But I just responded
to her that I do pray.

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But I don't pray for that.

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